The World from My Eyes

How do you see the world? What colors your views and how do use your experiences to interact with the world at large? I see the world as largely black and white with some some small gray areas stuck in there just for fun. I know why I see the world in this manner and it all breaks down to it makes the world safe for me.

How could Icome to the conclusion that the world is mostly black and white? Lets take a fantastic voyage into the nether realms of my mind to find the answer. First I grew up in the 'hood, Los Angeles, home of the Lakers, the Clippers, the Dodgers, and well most the good memories in my life. However there are some things I would love to forget; some things that we will allude to but not actually say.

OK so here we go...I moved to L.A.when i was 6 from a small town called Mojave. Now it was all exciting and new until i found out that boys of my coloring were not liked by all. Instance number 1...elementary school was not fun. Then having a sister who is smart and having every one comparing you to her...well instance number 2, Then there was a divorce and more school and then a group of "friends" who took me to a new understanding of how we fall prey to our own insecurities. Instance number 3 in this wonderful little drama called my life. I made some changes in high school got a mentor and changed my latitude in life but what made me, me has always been the same.

Each instance has shaped me in a way that can not be quantified by just words. Every experience, every moment, when viewed in hindsight has brought deeper understand of why things are for me. Why life appears so black and white sprinkled with gray. Church had some thing to do with it and interactions with my parents and friends of differing faiths and religions but the overriding theme is people. People help us see or not see the world for all of its varying colors; people make up the palette and the canvas that we use to paint our lives.
So why do you see the world the way you do?  Is it people, a person, a personal experience, what has defined you through out your life? When you look closely you will find your underlying reason for the coloration of your world view.